i have an odd connection with eyes, so many nerves in a small delicate sphere. kind of like earth haha :)... that's not funny. the eye is so powerful, we see so much, how can it handle it? do you ever think our eyes get tired?

i get tired of seeing. sometimes i wish i could remove my eyeballs and dunk them in a cold bowl of ice water. or take a gentle wipe and rub the corneus. or unplug the nerves, pluck them one by one and slide them back into place. take a dentist scaler and scrape the anomalies away. i want to clear the cache of my eyes.

sometimes i get jealous of other peoples eyes. it's not easy to see. that doesn't mean it would be easier to be blind however. i don't wanna be blind. i don't want to live in ignorance. i don't want to know who i'd be if I couldn't see, i don't want to know the things I'd say if I didn't know what people looked like. would i still be as judgemental? would my eyes still judge if they couldn't see? someone asked me once if I became blind one day after waking up... what would i miss seeing first?

probably my dog :l

i don't like eyes, it's too vulnerable. once i got bleach in it... that sucked :( it stung

i used to have nightmares, i still have them... but they don't occur as frequenty. i'd have visions of figures taking scalpels to my eyes. i wouldn't be able to shut my eyes or look away, I was forced to take it. forcing my eyelids open with their fingers before slicing and penetrating. i would wake up, terrified to shut my eyes... what if they came again?

i think it's quite ironic that closing my eyes and defending them with my eyelids still hurt me in the end. i couldn't close my eyes. i couldn't close my eyes.

i wonder where the figures from that dream went, why they decided to torment me. I mean... i get it... but it's unfair.

i changed my mind. i'd miss seeing my friends. i'd miss them a lot. it's the only reason i'm still alive. i wouldn't want them to see the world differently. why do i have to affect people? why do people see me? please stop looking at me

you're looking at me. why are you looking at me.

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